I don’t even know how to start this post.
Late last night, I learned that one of my favorite bloggers passed away. Her blog, Confessions of an RA Superbitch, was funny, irreverent, and said so many of the things I’d love to be able to say. I don’t know the details of her death. A few months ago, she wrote that there was “some rather scary stuff happening with the RA.” Then one of her friends posted this week that she died peacefully at home with her husband and son. From this, I can only conclude that she died of RA complications.
This has really thrown me for a loop. When I read the news last night, I couldn’t stop crying. I didn’t know RA SB in person; I didn’t even know her real name. I’m not the type to cry when, for example, famous people die, or people I don’t know well. In general, I don’t cry much at all. So my emotional response was pretty intense and unexpected.
I think it’s pretty clear why. RA SB and I were close in age, both had young sons, both taught college. We commented on each other’s blogs because each of us tended to say things that resonated with the other. She even observed once that she, Rheumatoid Arthritis Guy, and I, who are all around the same age, seemed to experience flares around the same time. I related to her. I loved the spunky way she wrote about her illness. And the fact that she probably died of the same disease that I have is just too much for me to face right now. My heart is breaking for her husband and son. Her last post, back in April, broke my heart even then – it’s even harder to read now.
I will miss you, Superbitch. I don’t know what else to say.
Tags: Grief, RA Community
I miss her too. 🙁 She was such an incredible voice for us. But I adored that she made us laugh too. She will be deeply, deeply missed. I know I will continue to reread her posts. I found out today from itis. I couldn’t stop crying and I’m sure there is more to come. i know what you mean about it throwing you for a loop. Really, really saddened me. I keep thinking about her husband and son too. Breaks my heart. You’re right. It hits too close to home… I also feel angry. Angry at what RA did to SB.
Really hit me hard to, I couldn’t stop tearing up at work when I was reading the comments. I just found her blog recently when I started my own and I fell in love with it instantly. I can’t stop wondering what happened mostly because I can’t stop thinking that could be me leaving my son and husband. My thoughts and prayers to her family and friends.
It’s so incredib;e how we all depend on one an other and we don’t even know each other really. Super Bitch was a Super Woman. She will truly be missed.
Her friend Tabby posted that the docs think she died form complications to a non-RA-related surgery she had a couple weeks ago. No matter really. She’s still gone. I hope she’s resting in peace.